Sometimes as I lay in bed my mind begins to wander and soon I’m asking myself about what I really want to do in life. I begin to fantasize about movies I love and how sometimes our destiny turns on a dime and puts us on a completely different path. I think of my heart’s desire, actually more bucket list things I want to do in my lifetime. Ever since I watched Out of Africa, all I thought about for a year was moving to Africa or at least booking a safari and dressing in those fabulous linen and khaki outfits that resemble the old Banana Republic, when they sold old deadstock inventory from the 1930’s. I try to imagine what my life would be like if I actually took that chance to act of my wishes. I want an adventure. I don’t mean booking a 2 weeks in Mexico, but a lifetime memory that will perhaps change my direction in life. But am I just overtaken by conformity? While time slips away faster and faster, pretty soon we wake up at age 70 and we haven’t done a fraction of what we’ve dreamed of tackling. I don’t want to wake up one day and realize I didn’t follow my heart and take that turn that would make that lifetime statement that defines who I am.
Pemberton Mackey 2017